For the past several days I have attempted meditating as well as saying positive affirmations. I have tried mediating in the past, only to fall asleep. I’m like ok….maybe I shouldn’t lay down if I am mediating. So, the last several days I have been sitting up in a crossed leg position.
The whole entire time it seems like a constant battle to stay focused on my breathing or sound of music. I am constantly pulling my mind from random thoughts that do not mean a hill of beans at that particular moment. as I am concentrating on my breathing, I have thoughts about what I’ll cook for dinner, what happened with this or that….just non sense. It seems that I can only stay super focused on my breathing for a few seconds at a time. I’m assuming that the more I exercise my mind the longer I’ll be able to focus in longer.
Other than mediating and trying to get myself together I have been looking at carious programs to apply to. I’ve began the process of applying to a couple of undergraduate programs. We’ll see what happens with that. I just need to find another career path that I may be happier in.