Where’s the rewind button for life? I really wish there were one. I have major regrets from the past 9 years of my life. So many things I can’t patch up at this point. It just is what it is……should be water under the bridge, but that’s what it’s not. My tiny, 5 foot 100lbs body can’t hold the weight. There are times I feel like I’m literally drowning….being forced & held down. I just want out. I want to be free.
I have a tendency to beat myself up too much for mistakes or learning experiences. I’m my biggest critic! I have a difficult time letting myself off the hook for past faults.
I have to give myself the opportunity to err without thinking and behaving like it’s the end of my existence. I have to learn to move forward without lingering too long on how things could’ve been. We’re all dealt a hand….some good, some bad, but more often than not I’m playing my hand wrong. Alicia Meyers said, “if you play your cards right everything’s gonna be alright!….I think that’s kinda true.
I feel like I could’ve been so much farther in life if it wasn’t for certain cards I was dealt and nobody having my back at that point in life. I have to stop ✋🏾 comparing my life with others also cause often they are not comparable. I find myself in the past or the future in my mind when I should be in the present. I can’t change anything in the past nor predict the future…….