It’s about 6am , dark, quiet, and a strange peace before I get up and prepare for the day. It’s always very peaceful those moments before the sunrises to me. All I hear is the buses and cars going past outside my home. There are still not many on my street until maybe 7 or 8am, so it’s still pretty quiet.
I’ve been spending my time crocheting, reading, and watching some films/documentaries that help my mind.Things have been calm for me with a few rough spots, but nothing I can’t get past. I’ve been working on a number of custom orders for a few people. I tend to get really nervous about this! I’m always thinking…oh what if this or that, what if it doesn’t fit, what if the sky falls? However, most of the time the pieces come together just fine. However, I am working on my tension/gauge and measuring it so that my pieces come out right each time.
I’ve also been watching and number of lectures by Dr. Phil Valentine about higher consciousness and other stuff. I know he’s been around a very long time, but recently I actually decided to check out what he’s all about. I grew up Baptist, but as a young adult I embarked on a spiritual journey as a Hebrew Israelite. Of course those around me (family) were not fond of these changes. Most respected it, my mom did and I am glad she did not attempt to hinder my growth. As of right now I am not certain that I can some up my spirituality ONLY as a Hebrew Israelite. I have gained more knowledge and have some different feelings than I did 5 years ago.
Since these various feelings have be present I feel like others will judge me for “flip floppin” lol, but I have not dwell into that. I have to do what is good for me. I believe I stayed stagnant for a while spiritually worried about how others would perceive me. People can judge and run their mouths, but at least I took a leap and explored other belief systems. If you stay in the same space and don’t explore how will you know what’s right for you.Well….I’m going to find out. This was a bit all over, but you catch my drift!